Archive for February, 2011

Idealistic v. Realistic

I think that to some extent, I will always be an idealist.

Over the years, I’ve certainly made a transition & my views are more realistic than they used to be. I would credit this change to my education, both through school & through life experiences. As I engaged more in the world of activism, it made more sense to adopt a realistic view in order to get things done. I need to know what I’m up against if I’m going to have a chance of being successful.

However, I can still get caught up in those idyllic thoughts that rush to the surface. I indulge in them, thinking of how nice it would be if X just happened or if something like Y would lead to X. Things usually aren’t that easy, or in some cases just not possible. That doesn’t mean I’m not going to try, it just means that I need a different game plan. And I like to set myself up to cushion the blow if something doesn’t work out or if the outcome isn’t as stellar as I had hoped.

The reason I’ve been thinking about all of this has to do with this post.

I decided not to complete my application for Teach For America. (Yesterday was the last deadline for the 2011-2012 school year.) After talking to one of my friends who did TFA for a year, I had a lot to think about. I realized that I wasn’t giving myself enough time to make an informed decision about applying for the program. Making such a commitment takes more than a month or two of tossing the idea around, & I owe more to myself, the program, & children currently going through the education system.

I’m not sure what I will wind up doing in regards to TFA. My plan is to take more time to think about it as an option, to be more realistic about the program, the challenges, & my expectations of participating. I think I’ve covered the positive aspects already, which is what lead me to considering applying. Believe me, those positive aspects have stuck with me & made it hard not to apply by yesterday’s deadline.

I would have to say that the biggest deterrent I had was the fact that there is no guarantee of being placed in a job for the beginning of the school year. That coupled with what I know about the school district which was my first choice … I’ll be honest, it scared the heck out of me. I can’t commit myself to something & incur the costs of moving practically across the country (not to mention to a state which is so plagued by unemployment) without the guarantee of a paying job. I wish that I could, but I can’t.

For now, I need to find out more about the challenges facing schools & students in these poor, disadvantaged areas of our country. I can’t think that I can go in & change the problems facing the education system. Yes, I can help make a difference, but not in the way I was envisioning when I first started thinking about TFA.

I believe that the balance I have between my idealistic thoughts & realistic thoughts is what works, for me. Sometimes I need to be my own critic & point out that I’m not working with that balance though. This is a case where the scale was tipped to one side, for sure.

I’m not sure what the road ahead looks like. I don’t know if I’ll wind up doing TFA, if some other program will wind up being the place for me, or what other opportunities I might come across. I just know that eventually I’ll get to the right place … I told you I’ll always be an idealist!

 

PS — I just realized how ironic it is that a non-profit job listing website I use is called idealist.org!

Off Track

I’ve been so off track with updating, setting my sights on projects, etc.

Right now I’m home sick with some ridiculous, exhausting, I don’t know what – cold maybe? So forgive me for possibly not making sense, but here are some things I want to share …

One of the bloggers I read is currently in Uganda. I’m looking forward to reading about the rest of her trip & if you’re interested, here’s a link to her posts tagged “Africa”:
moments with love

I’m following the events in Egypt with the Amnesty International blog.
Amnesty International

I can’t express enough how important freedom of expression is. And I admire journalists worldwide.

I can’t remember if there were any other misc. items I wanted to cover. I’ve been watching Dr. Phil, so I think it’s safe to say that I’m not in my right mind at the moment.

What human rights, political, &/or social justice news has caught your attention recently?